Same Old Song and Dance

As I read over the past 4 posts on this blog, most of them sound the same-- "wow, I haven't been writing on this thing in a while" or "I'm going to write on this more often".

Funny. That hasn't happened.

You would think I would learn a lesson and stop making promises because one part of me knows I won't keep them.

Maybe I keep making them because another part of me, knows that I want to.

But which wins? Usually the part that knows I won't. I feel like this is a metaphor for everything I do in my life. I try to be so many things, making so many promises, even though I know I can't keep them all.

I want to be so many things. I want to try so many things. But, as I learned in economics, wants are infinite, and resources are scarce.

So what' important to me? I guess I need to figure that one out.

I've been participating in an online community for young professionals for some time now. I updated my profile there to discuss my goals, both short term and long term. When I wrote those goals, I thought about them and I knew they were what I wanted. But, funny (and sad) enough, when I looked at them tonight, I had completely forgot that I wrote them there. I didn't even remember them! Talk about important goals.

The thing is, I know they're important to me. I really do. But it's the everyday stuff and stress that gets in the way. Or at least, that I LET get in the way. I know what I want. I just don't want to make it priority.

So it comes down to this: How much do I want it?

Until I want it so bad I can taste it, nothing is going to change. I am going to continue living my life in the same gerbil wheel until I decide to stop running. But what's going to make me stop running and start living with a purpose??

Until next time...