Tonight is one of those nights.
Sometimes I just want to pack it all up and move back to Wisconsin. But I know it'll never be the same as it was in college. We don't all live in the same city anymore. We aren't all in classes and working part time anymore. Most of us have graduated. We've moved on. But I wonder if I have.
I may be 1300+ miles away, but that doesn't mean I've emotionally moved on. And I have to wonder if I want to move on in that way. I know that in certain aspects, I need to. But I miss the way things were. I miss sitting around doing nothing and not having to worry about adult things. It was so much easier when I didn't have that kind of stress. A stress beyond will I get this project done? Will I make it to my class on time? Etc.
I think I'm also feeling lonely because I don't have anyone close by that I can talk with and hang out with. I have my work friends, but that's a work relationship. It's different. I think this is one reason why I'm doubting whether moving was the right choice. Because I haven't met anyone here yet. I don't have those close friendships. But it took me a while to form them in college. So it makes sense that it will take me a while to form them in Austin too.
Gah. Why can't life be simple? I guess that would take away the fun of it. But still.